My dreams are still about you

My dreams are still about you

So are my nightmares

I have come to realize

For you, I still care

My hopes have only you

Written all over them

Even when I think of you today

You don’t cease to overwhelm

I still feel messed up

When it comes to you

My friends say I am still in love

And yes that is true

am not angry

I am not upset

For I am still not over

Our breakup yet

I am not wild at all

I am not in stress

It’s just that our breakup

Has left me in a mess

I am at such a strange place

My heart is not here nor there

I can see only you

When I look around everywhere

My attempts to forget you

Always seem to be in vain

This tiff with myself

Is driving me insane

I try to get you out of my head

But somehow you return

The very thought of you

Makes my stomach churn

Maybe I should give all this

Some more time and space

Maybe I should stop dreaming

That our destinies will again embrace

I still think we can cut it out as a pair

I still believe that we are meant to be

Let’s just put our past behind

Let’s put an end to all this misery

All our differences were just a small

Bump in our beautiful journey

Let’s move on and make things right

I miss being your girlfriend, terribly

I am so angry at myself

For missing you

I am so devastated

For expecting something new

I am so frustrated

For feeling guilty about us

I am so exasperated

For creating all this fuss

The real problem is

That I am still trying to cope

From the horrors of our breakup

I am still trying to elope

My heartbeat spikes

My adrenaline rushes

My pulse quickens

My blood freezes

My stomach twists

My insiders turn

Your memory makes

My eyes burn

I go through this

Every time I think of you

Please tell me you feel this rush

When you miss me too

I know I have to accept

That you aren’t mine anymore

The more I think about it

My heart becomes so sore

I know I need to admit

That we both are done and dusted

But the more I try to do that

The more I feel so busted

I still love you

Calling you a friend

Is a compromise

Our breakup is one thing

That I have come to despise

On your body and soul

I wish I still had the right

I never knew I would

Miss you with all my might

Maybe we could try

Just a wee bit more

Maybe we could make it again

By letting our love soar

Maybe we could attempt

To stash the past away

Maybe, just maybe

No matter how much I curse you

No matter how many abuses I hurl

Without you I feel

Like a lonesome and weary girl

No matter how much I blame you

No matter how much I hold you guilty

Without you I feel

So unfulfilled and lonely

Moving on from our relationship

To finally let you go

Is something I don’t believe in

Is what I want you to know

Even though you are away

From me physically

My heart will always love you

Unconditionally

I may try to move on

But my heart won’t come with me

It refuses to abandon

Every single memory

Which we have made together

Something that will always remain

Even though it gives my heart

Unfaltering pain

I just want you to know

That I am still waiting

Somehow you will come back

I am still hoping

You may have moved on by now

Something that I still haven’t been able to do

I wonder how you are going about with your life

It is something I can’t think of without you

You seem to have taken everything

With a pinch salt and gulped it down

But it has left a bitter taste in my mouth

And on my face, nothing but a frown

I wish this wasn’t the kind of stuff

That we both had to go through

Because I miss you like hell

I hope you miss me badly too

I will always love you

Until my dying day

In the depths of my heart

You will always stay

Just because you are my ex

Doesn’t mean I will forget

I hope you haven’t moved on

From our love just yet

The memory of each day

That we spent together

Will always be engraved

In my heart forever

I wonder how it would be

If you were still here

Come back, take me in your arms

I still love you, and I can’t fucking unlove you

I hate you

I want to take revenge

Your actions and deeds

I want to avenge

I hate the very thought

Of having loved you before

All your actions has made me

Really numb and sore

But even after all this

There is a part of me

Which misses you every day

I guess I will love you until eternity