Gold flowers, incense floating

Lush June, the beginning of summer in the North, a scene of life outside my window, green grass, green shiny; The trees are shady, and the shade is cool. The golden tree, a tall tree with broad leaves in the shape of egg hearts, is especially gorgeous. It is the season when its clusters of white flowers are in full bloom.

To tell the truth, to the origin of the United States, the tree tall bignoniaceae catalpa tree I was rare, only feel it with the growth of the southern hometown everywhere, tenacious vitality of paulownia as rapidly, each read this let my thoughts, immediately remember home, remember to relatives, friends, the old, recalled nearly two years to south to the northwest of the motherland, the other From Hunan into Xinjiang to the corps work dribs and drabs......

Wanli Hengyang goose, this year and return to the north. On December 12, 2018, I joined hands with three colleagues and flew from the remote Hengyang city of Hunan Province 8,000 miles away to Wushi city, located in the great northwest of China, to work in the XPCC, becoming a glorious cadre of internal transfer and starting a new voyage of life.

The clanging words of "never say goodbye" are still in my ears when I say goodbye to my colleagues at the moment of departure, jumping into the vivid reality of northland, a confusion. Because before I had never lived in the north long, when the dead of winter, chill, air drying, unfamiliar environment, the difference between family, entering the north because of discomfort and reality gap between everywhere haunts me, wanders moved emotions filled my heart, always make me painful and difficult to extricate themselves, but the repeated whisper of shallow sing alone yue fei word "small of mountains" "wants to worry FuYaoQin, Bosom friend few, string broken who listen to?" , Lu Fang Weng "love" "this life who, heart in Tianshan, the body old Cangzhou", also personally wrote the poem "I like a leaf boat, in the turbulent sea, ups and downs, difficult to hold. How I wish to ask the swan geese passing by, why is the path so sad and bloodstained?" To relieve melancholy. Spring comes and fall comes, cold and summer come and go, time slips by unnoticed. In 2019, I have been adjusting, adapting and transforming myself. Originally, si of the winter is not only the north scenery thousands of miles of ice, thousands of miles of snow floating majestic, more is looking at the Great Wall inside and outside, but I am reckless bleak. Take a broad view, the whole western regions of the earth can not see a trace of green, only two primary colors, or white, or gray, drab suffocating, can not find a bright color.

The wheel of years has rolled over day and night, spring and autumn winter and summer, the reincarnation of fleeting years sends morning hui Twilight xia, like water time, the footstep of time marches forward 2020, the year of boxer, the war of nation, a sudden epidemic situation changed this world deeply, also changed me greatly -- a stray person. After the Spring Festival in Hunan hometown, according to the original plan to return to Urumqi, I received a notice from the unit, do not return to the post at home standby, this stay is two months, during the home, I made a profound reflection, recall the balance to Xinjiang work this period of days, I for what? What was I thinking? What did I do? The years are so beautiful, BUT I am so impetuous, it is really shameful, make me ashamed. Today, China is facing great changes unprecedented in a century. Considering that the country and people are under so much pressure and suffering so much loss, I, who should have the feelings of family and country, have lost myself. It is too small and selfish. Hardship is the essence of success. Through the comparison of big "I" and small "I", slowly understand that life is the repetition of sunrise and sunset; Life is a mixture of ups and downs. Like tea I realize life, tea but two kinds of posture, floating, sinking; Tea drinkers do not have two postures, pick up, put down. Life is like tea, tea is like life, sink calm, float indifferent, pick up also need to put down, put down to bear. Walking in this world, always have an unyielding heart, that is the most needed sunshine along the way of life. Even if you fail ninety-nine times, maybe the hundredth time, you succeed! "The road ahead is endless, I see no end, I will search up and down", on the eternal journey of life, running in the ups and downs, nirvana in frustration, sorrow wrapped all over the body, pain floating on the ground, we are tired, but no rest; We suffer, but we cannot avoid it. I believe that all adult world, is the survival. In fact, we can not see all the snow in a person's life, everyone is in his own life, lonely winter. Facing the long journey of life, facing all kinds of life styles, we need to constantly explore and pursue. The road of life may not always be smooth sailing, crisis time will come, at this time we need to be positive and optimistic to face, there may be rainbows in the storm, crisis may have unexpected turning point.

In particular, I reread the famous poet Wang Guozhen's Love of Life: "Since I have chosen the distance, I will only struggle through trials and hardships; Since the goal is the horizon, what can be left to the world is only their back. "Han Han said: Angels can fly because they think very lightly of themselves, which made me suddenly understand. Yeah, now that you've made your life choice, you should go ahead without looking back. This world no matter what happened 嫑 give up, insist on going all the way will certainly have unexpected scenery. Life always has a way, need a person to go, that a person brave to go through without regret. Since has fallen to the bottom, in fact every step, are in the upward, just before the light, we should gladly accept the embarrassment and not easy, accept a person's loneliness and helplessness. If one can make a change for the better, one can make a change for the better. Man lives not by tears to win sympathy, but by sweat to win respect. Silently encourage yourself to be the best I can be, change a little bit every day, improve a little bit, in order to meet a different version of yourself. Say less and do more often think and do, "eat bitter, bear bore, bully pretty", with hot sweat to irrigate the flowers of life, with a smile to meet the happy life, with persistence to win the final victory, so, as long as good luck uninvited.

In prosperity, is gratifying; In the face of adversity, may not be too sad, blessing in disguise? As long as we treat every moment of life correctly and take every step well, we can appreciate the unique scenery in the face of adversity and realize many life philosophies that cannot be fully understood by ordinary people, making our road of life more youthful and charming. Yeah! "Heroes beat tooth and blood swallow", life is never really desperate, no matter how much hardship, no matter how much suffering, as long as the heart also with a seed of faith, perseverance, teeth adhere to constantly refresh themselves, then one day, you will be able to get out of the predicament, let the tree of life blossom and bear fruit again. This is just like the golden flowers blooming trees outside the window, the wind blows, like a group of life in full bloom in the wind dance, full of eternal simplicity, fragrance yingying is flashing dazzling light, has beyond the ordinary power.

Lao Zi said, "If you finish with caution, you'll have nothing to lose." Hold the beginner's mind, is to firm pace; Remember the mission, is to draw the blueprint. Gradually open your heart, out of the darkest hour, the clouds see the sun, when the clouds disperse, it can be said that the gain and loss of honor and disgrace between a thought, after the insight of the individual deeply relieved, then come, an, will be happy! As a garrison in the new era, we must raise our political standing, arm our minds with the regimental, veteran and populus spirit, draw strength and carry forward our mission. Then the next step is to clear your head, pack your bags, and get ready to start again.