Hey, Boss can I tell you something?

There's not much I regret in my life. But there is one that I highly regret: being let go of a job that I really like. The reason? I didn't get along with my boss.

There are plenty of reasons to feel intimidated by a woman. My boss was not just the exception, but she was the rule. For name's sake, we say her name was Sasha. There's no need to throw her under the bus when that's all I was treated under her thumb. I respect her for learning the trade and industry when she had no knowledge of it. The only issue I had was the corporate language when I talked more like one of the technicians. It was a real wall that was difficult to climb.

Now Sasha was not just a boss, but she was a mom of three. So let's just say she's earned the t-shirt multiple times. The only problem was that while she was three times over, I was just one.

My son is someone who grew on me. I never had the love and affection that most mothers have when they see their children for the first time. But after his tube surgery at fourteen months, it felt like I could be on the right track for being a mom who loves their own kid. But then we ran into a different scenario: enlarged tonsils. My son, let's say his name is Tommy, was suffering from lack of eating and lack of sleeping. He would wake up in the middle of the night and scream because he would stop breathing. While I don't speak up about my personal life and I often try to handle things on my own, this could have been something I should have spoken up about when it was August of last year because while we had to deal with Tommy having enlarged tonsils, there was also a leak in our roof above his room exposing the insulation and gypsum to mold growth. This made his condition a lot worse. So while I woke up every odd hour of the night, I often had to work a nine-hour shift during the busy season dealing with multiple people yelling at me in every possible direction. Do you think I kept under the pressure? Well sort of, I got snappy and cranky. Not a good idea for someone coming back from maternity leave and dealing with a newborn. Let's just say we were both tired.

Do I wish I had a time machine to go back and fix everything? Yes. Is this possible? Probably not since there is a possibility that I have been blacklisted from the company. So what are my alternatives? Getting a new job for one and the other? Going for the licensing to ensure that I can learn more about the industry and do better the next time.

I may have a hate relationship sometimes with what my boss put me through and letting me go because I didn't speak in a way that was communicative to her understanding, but this "vacation" as my husband likes to call it should give me some time to relax and get ready to dive in when I have the chance to learn something from my personality and behavior.

So thank you, Sasha, you showed me that sometimes it's okay to speak up and learn from mistakes. But maybe you could also work on some of your own problems too. Let's take a break from each other and come back to working at the same company in the future. Let's not be strangers, even though I deleted your contact information. Whoops.