How to Quiet to Voices of Doubt in Our heads

As someone like myself I have lived in negative environments until recently. However, doubts occur when I think there is nothing left to hope for. When I think hey I just got this accomplished four or five things happen that I need to fix.

Am I financially sit fuck no...

I could pay in bed watching reruns of Gilmore Girls wishing everything would be okay.

The hardest thing for an introvert like myself is putting myself out there for fear of rejection. Which is a contradiction in itself because I am in college studying to be a social worker, and minoring in psychology. That in itself is a messed up situation.

Like my husband my husband has told me look at these experiences I am facing as writing opportunities to tell others of what I am going through.

Now I never thought I could write about these things like fantasy short stories of my husband and I first night reunited in our apartment all though pervs would enjoy that. Her chocolate man and vanilla self with truffle chocolate inside. White chocolate inside truffle chocolate inside. Which sounded like a great paraphrase but came out dirty.

As a woman I have survived my share of bullshit. I had troubled childhood full of neglect though others would say I had love but they didn't see it from my point of view. I survived verbal and emotional abuse walking away with eating disorder vibes acts, having a phobia of scales after my grandma says this is on the one thing you can't lie to yourself on.

Being bullied in high school and at home, having a sister who was the center of attention while I was left and forgotten. Being told I am wrong for how I feel.

This all led up to my adulthood insecurities, sadness, and depression. Then everything changed I got married family disowned me because I married someone I love it wasn't in their standards. I don't regret marrying my husband our marriage is us this man is my rock my everything. He has saw me at my worse yet loves me.

My point to this post while telling you about my experiences my question how do I quiet the voices of doubt in my head? There are five ways that work for me which may not work for you.

1: Music:

I listen to Jason Derulo, Wu Tang Clan, Celtic Women, and depending on my mood. Music is my life it calms me without it I don't know what I would do. When I'm am working on a novel project I make a playlist to set the mood, I even have a playlist while I work on my blog entries for Vocal.

2: Journaling:

I haven't journaled in so long because I have a phobia about journaling now. Throughout my life have journaled sharing my feelings, thoughts, and doubts. When I moved out my mother went through my diaries and my wicked sister did too. I never thought my thoughts would be shared with them. When you keep a diary you never think they the person I am writing about they will never know how I feel. Wrongio this is so the opposite of this. And then after that let's just say I am afraid to share my thoughts on paper so now i share my thoughts on my blog mind as well eventually people will read it so just embrace it.

3: Sharing my thoughts with my husband:

Sharing my feelings with my husband helps me so much. He doesn't realise it but it does. When I share my doubts and fears he always tells me to get out of my head and stop doubting yourself.

4: House cleaning:

If anyone sees me cleaning my stove run because I am very upset. I don't clean enough as I should and that's not good for my mental state. Cleaning helps a lot organising helps too. I have a minor bit of OCD. Okay when you use Pinterest to get organiser ideas and OCD ideas on to make things more efficient does that mean I have problems.

5: Having a Routine:

The last time I had a routine I lived at home with my husband he helped me with figuring it out and making sure I have no routine right now. No structure something I need to figure out. My only way to adapt is winging it.

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