A List Taller than My Capabilities...

Today was a Sunday without my kids and typically I try to get a lot done, but today I slept - a lot. I didn't wake up until 9am. Stayed up until almost 10am in order to talk to my kids, and then slept until after 11am.

It was then that my boyfriend and I both got up and started cleaning my bedroom as we had rearranging plans to do ... I'm trying to make the house "show ready" with only a few moments notice. That is not going as planned, but my plan didn't involve a surgery needing to happen at the same time either! I am learning to "go with the flow" - even if what appears to be happening is the flow knocks me down and I keep trying to keep from drowning...

By 1:30, I had to lay back down again and now it is 4:30 and I am writing a blog post because I can't handle going through boxes of items right now. I need brain power. Brain power requires no pain pills and less pain. My pain requires pain pills which require sleep. I do not like this circle!

I decided to look at the week ahead and try to come up with my plan for productivity...

Sunday? Well, blog post, room cleaned out, and hopefully the boxes sorted before my kids return this evening...

Monday - my mom and boyfriend will be taking the kids to their counseling appointment because I am not up for the time in the vehicle with how much my back hurts. My counseling appointment will be held virtually and then I will be meeting with another professional. It is going to be a long day.

Tuesday - kid's will be in daycare and I have a morning meeting, along with 2 afternoon meetings (I think I may have double booked again - with my pain being so elevated, I have been having issues with my schedule). I also have to plan in time to attempt to communicate with my coparent - knowing that he will likely ignore everything that he doesn't think is important, despite what the court, mediators, lawyers, and/or medical professionals say - and then time to regulate my own emotions so that I can help our kids stay regulated with the consistent unknowns that face them on their evenings with their dad.

Wednesday - I have only one afternoon appointment scheduled. I think that I forgot to write stuff down... I will see if I can remember what I am missing... oh yeah, there is a Christmas party that I was invited too... somehow I don't think that I will make it... *sigh*

Thursday - I don't have anything scheduled beyond my coparenting "normal" challenges...

Friday - I have one morning appointment and then it is the start of my weekend with my kids.

I need to schedule in time for writing and time to finish house project: showroom ready home.

I need to also plan on sleeping 16+ hours a day apparently.

And somehow spend time with my kids making special Christmas memories...

It all feels like way too much to handle, but...

One day at a time...

One breathe at a time...

Just a step forward...

that is all that I really have to do. It doesn't need to be perfect - I just need to keep going. *smile*

This Sunday, I laid out my schedule with the intention of being successful.

Please note: I didn't label successful at what, so it might be successful at chaos or successful at achieving goals - that way I hit some form of success! *giggles with a wink*

What does your success look like? Could it use an adjustment too? Leave me a comment with the answers - I'd love to hear from you!