A Poem About Mental Health

This poem is a much too vulnerable confession

About struggling with insecurity, anxiety, and depression

Fake all the confidence

But self esteem is very low

In any situation

Assume the worst case scenario

Example

When somebody says:

I’ll let you get to writing

Have a nice day

Translate that as:

I wish you’d fuck off

And go the fuck away

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Every smile’s fake

Every compliment a lie

They say it’s good to see you

But they really wish you’d die

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It’s a problem

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Exhausted

And anxious

In every waking moment

And they’re all waking moments

Because you can’t sleep

Since the same thoughts keep replaying

That day’s moment

That spun you out

And you relive it

Over and over and over and over

Until you start living in the made up aftermath

Which makes things even worse

Until it’s time to get up

And pretend you are fine again