A PROMISE

I once promised myself

to never make the same mistake everybody

else does…

I promised to not continue

the endless cycle of being played again,

played again…

And played again…

I promised that I would never,

under any circumstance,

fall for the first girl who makes me

feel special.

I'd never fall for the first girl who

is always happy to see me

and actually

sees me

as a human being,

not as a helper or a side person

in a multi-million movie.

Someone who talking to feels

actually nice and not forced.

The words just come out, one after another,

and we don't just sit there in silence.

Someone with whom I can share ideas,

not of the future, but of here,

of the present, and we can laugh

about the dumb things we've been through.

Someone who feels like a safe place

rather than a label, like

"Friendship Shouldn't Be."

Someone who can emotionally understand me and be in my life,

not in the past,

but hopefully together in the future.

Someone who makes me really feel happy to wake up.

And while I hate mornings, the thought of her

awakens my inner body, and I just can't contain my emotions.

Someone who, even in my darkest days,

can lighten up not just the room, but the whole world,

and cheers me on with every step I take,

and stays by me no matter

what I've done or did.

I once promised myself

to never make the same mistake everybody

else does…

But what can I say?

I can be somebody or

anybody,

and follow the rules and cycles.