Why always do I have to be alone,
Why I can't have the things like the rest,
Why can't I have the joy in my life,
Why can't I have her with me...
Swami, why have you made me?
What have you done with me?
What do you want me to become?
How could you do this with me?
Why can't I have someone I like,
Why can't I have something of mine,
I want you and yet I feel you are away from me,
I wanted something which brings me closer to you,
And that one person too I couldn't have...
I really am tired dear Swami,
I really want you to be here,
Right now, to talk to me,
I want you here, right now...
Wish I could have her,
Wish I could hold her hands,
Wish I could hug her tightly,
Wish she could be mine alone...
But, I think you have better plans,
Plans to make me more comfortable,
Plans which bring me tears of joy,
Plans which make me want you more and more,
Plans that brings back me...
Swami, don't you think it is time,
It is the time to grant me things,
Which help me out at least in the society,
Why am I suffering so much even with you,
I wonder how much will it be a pain,
If I hadn't have you with me...
It hurts me to see her get married,
It hurts me to see her hurting when I am here,
It hurts me when I wanted her but she will be gone,
Like I could catch her but I am the ghost and I can't,
I know you know everything the past, present and the future,
I know if I could have a job I could have asked her hand,
And you knew their answers, why do you play with me,
Why do you hurt me, Swami, why do you want to kill me,
Whenever I open my eyes and I see you hurting me,
Why do you have to be like this?
About the Creator
Shishir Rana
I am a writer and a poet. In my free time, I read novels while sipping some of the best coffee in the world. When I go for a drive, the door to the unknown world opens, and that's the last thing I remember.
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