I Dread The Day I Turn Out To Be Real
But I am not Real
Surrounded by mirrors, it's all just phantasmagoria, whimsy guesswork of a boy. I feel like a chance encounter, surrounded by clocks whose hands seem not to move in the slightest, clocks that forget how to make a sound.
In the mirror, there's one big question mark: a riddle which was solved, and then turned out not to be solved at all. Existence is so fickle, such chance, changing before your very eyes, before you've had a chance to acclimatize.
Surrounded by mirrors, it's all just illusions and lights, a magic-lantern show whose flames ebb and flow until they disappear completely. A candle wick, a matchbox, a girl pieced together at random by wandering eyes. A cloud, which opens up wide and tickles the sky.
Under the mirrors, it's all just capricious brain-thoughts I dream on a whim. The hands of a puppet-master, a sickened twist of fate within a Game. A pawn, fragmented by disguise, a most peculiar guise, and neon lights:
I feel like a cloud of dust, whisked away by a gust of wind or an elevated voice. Under the neon lights, there's only clouds made up of Me, and nothing more.
About the Creator
Antiquity Anecdotes
I'm an autist with an interest in world history and geography. I also write about mental health, my experiences as a neurodivergent parent, and queer issues.
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