My mother
Doesn’t take me
Seriously.
She believes
My mental illnesses
Are something to
Spite her; that I
Simply want
Attention.
How selfish of her
To think that
This hell I built
Is all some dumb
Joke.
My father
Is in denial.
He never speaks,
Never thinks to ask
Me how I feel.
If I speak, he
Changes the subject
Out of
Embarrassment.
How selfish of him
To think my problems
Aren’t worth his
Time; that I
His little girl
Can’t have
Problems.
Every boy
Who has ever
Loved me
Left me
Because
I’ve been too much
To handle. Too unstable.
Not good enough.
How selfish of them
To think that
My problems
Outweighed the love
I thought they
Had.
But perhaps I, too,
Am selfish -
Selfish to want
To kill myself
Selfish to starve
Selfish enough
To want someone
To care for
One moment.
Could it be
No one takes me
Seriously because
Even I
Underestimate
The damage
I do
To myself?
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