She never looks back...

She never looks back, only forward. She never notices what's behind her because she feels safe.

She sits in the pew across from me with her husband, children, and in-laws.

Safe in her environment, secure in her life, sure in her decisions. What must that feel like?

To think only of your future and not have the past hanging over your shoulders? To know that the people in your life have your back and are always with you, so you don't need to protect yourself because they will.

To have someone's love and support and to know that it's always there. Someone you can rely on, what does that feel like?

Look how she never notices the danger that could be lurking in every corner. It's as if she doesn't even think of these things.

How do you live a life like that?

I envy her. God, help me but I do. I don't remember a life that doesn't include worry, stress, anxiety, depression.

As I stand to sing "Oh what a Friend we have in Jesus." I realize I'm blessed though.

My trials have brought me so close to Him. I cling to Him like a life support.

I wonder, if you have people that support you do you lean on God as much?

Either way, I smile as I think I'll keep my battle scars.