She said to me last night

A sigh she let out was long and deep

Who is Jing Yang? I asked

It’s me, of course

A smile rimmed over her face

Where her eyes emitted babyish glee

I jotted down her name and asked her to read

She stared at it, bursting into a laughter

Laughing at me and mocking my response

As if I was a fool of not knowing her name

As usual

She caught a cab going a place she knew

But that the place became unknown

Upon her return by the driver

Her sorrow filled eyes resembled what I saw in a dog

As usual

She sat in a café to enjoy her favorite noodles

But “free meal” made her an unusual customer

She would invite me to have lunch there

I then paid off the bills that left unpaid

As usual

She loved riding her bicycle

But she didn’t know she’d been ruled out doing so

She was told that her bicycle was stolen

And she “chose” to believe whatever she was told

As usual

She was to cook

Putting stuff in a pot

And the pot was found in the microwave

A sigh she let out was long and deep

All aches were in my side

Her name is Jing Yang, she

was truly once my beloved mom

Tons of things she coped with

None failed, truly she was once the strongest

Once truly my dear mom, you

Were no longer calling me my name

Whereas my name appeared in your mumbles

And I answered you, I said, I heard you

Her beautiful handwritings became syllables

Jumping here and there meaninglessly

She was lost her gravity

She was flying in the universe of syllables

Now she was walking to a place

Where I failed to reach

Where her soul was lonesome

Each step she made was hastily and determined

That the steps to the vast were an infinity

All aches were in my side

To aim the last thin thread

Jing Yang forgot who Jing Yang was

And she forgot to utter my name in her mumbles

What were you rushing for?

You had gone too far, by the time

when snowflakes again fumbling on the earth

Even though, you sang

Sang softly and purely as it used to be

Wordless rhythm flew over the vast

My heart became a hollow where the rhythm resonated

I held my breath still –

being afraid of breaking your humming

I saw all molecules of notes were falling

To aim the last thin thread

I know her forever

Now she’s surrounded by dolls

Her smile was just innocent as dolls

“Listen, she doesn’t know you anymore.”

My sister opposed

When I brought her back from a nursing home

She didn’t know me

But I knew her

I knew her when she flashed an innocent smile

I knew her when she messed up things

I knew her, she went nut

I knew she had gone to a strange place

I know her forever

She said to me last night

she comes to see me often in my dreams

She wanted a bicycle to ride

She said to me last night