The floor is lava and I just want to find a cool place to dance

It feels like an overshare to say

I work at a hydroponic weed farm and im often sad

But I still said it to Ed Schrader last night.

They have a song called Blue Gardner

It totally isn't about hydroponic weed

I shouldn't be sad but I am

I shouldn't be sad but I am

I'm mindlessly wandering through whatever this actually is. It's not life I've died too many times.

It’s probably purgatory.

It’s probably just still 50 a.d and we are all old Romans trapped in an endless cycle. Helpless doomed to repeat the same mistakes until the return

Its probably purgatory

I repeat the same mistakes over and over

over and over over and over over and over

I listen to the same bands

I listen to the same bands

Forget and listen to them new again.

The people change but their archetypes don't. We are all but players and the roles need filled.

Some change for the better

some change in front of me

Those that have faded away will be forever constant in their trajectory until sufficient information proves their course has altered too.

A thousand points of light in the darkness

Stars

All the people I let go

All the people I gave up on

All the people I just avoid

Billions and billions of

Billions and billions of

Billions and billions of

Billions and billions of

stars

Look a constellation

It's a dumbass!

Is that a hammer on your belt Orion or are you just happy to see me?

I change but remain the same.

I don't age but my body does.

I still attack life with the same youthful exuberance only to forget my outward appearance, Merlin-esque even.

The snapback stings more than a worn rubber band should.

I have different manic energy. Less mania just the energy. It's almost like the medication did turn me into a zombie.

Zombie

Zombie

Zombie

Zombie

Zombie

I can't tell if things are getting better.

I can't tell if things are changing

I can't tell if I am getting better

I can't tell if I am changing

I can't tell.

I still overshare, but this time I might have inspired a song instead of a joke. I suppose that's better.

Maybe im more comfortable.

Comfortable, not conformable

Restless

The floor is still lava and I just want to find a cool place to dance

Dog sitting at the table with the house burning down around them, sips his coffee.

Man in the suit walks down the street burning gets on the bus

Man on fire repeats the same mistakes until he doesn't

The dog gets up and sips his coffee elsewhere

Man in the suit goes to barneys

Oh the humanity

Oh the humanity

Oh the humanity

Man on fire stops repeating himself