To my debilitating and self-sabotaging guilt,
I resign from your clever ways
How you wrap yourself around me like a vile vine
Squeezing and suffocating
Everything I am meant to be
I am done
I am done listening to your nonsense rants
I am done letting you dig your way under my skin
I am done giving you the reins on my life
I will no longer be a passive listener
I will no longer be a spineless host
I will no longer be a compliant passenger
You no longer have control
If I decide not to write today, so be it
If I decide not to read today, oh well
If I decide not to leave the house today, too bad
It is my decision, not yours
Watch me as I leave dishes in the sink
Abandon laundry in the dryer
Miss the deadline of another challenge
No more feeling bad about
Taking a break
Sitting on the couch
Saying no
To what I should be doing
I'm taking your hoard of "shoulds"
And throwing them in the dumpster
Lighting a match
Watching them all burn
And from those ashes
My dreams will rise
Unfiltered
Without restraint
I will steady my feet
Walk with confidence
You will no longer trip me
With your hidden traps
Instead
If I shall fall
If I shall fail
Then I will do so
With grace
And no regrets
Sincerely,
Me
About the Creator
Alyssa Musso
A scientist by trade, but a creative at heart. One novel in progress with too many other ideas taking up space in my head. Some of those ideas end up here.
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Comments (5)
Really like the poetic style of this! And my goodness is it relatable! Adored the lines, "I'm taking your hoard of "shoulds" And throwing them in the dumpster"!
I feel this in my core. As many times as I think I have kicked shame out for good, it creeps back in and sits on my back counter, on top of the DOOM pile. It's smirking face deserves a good slap.
I love this! So many times I’m slapping myself mentally for what did you accomplish? You didn’t do this. You didn’t do that. Then I have to run down in my head the list of things I did do and I’m surprised every single time. This happens of all this things I did accomplish When I thought I didn’t do anything today. And really who cares some days we shouldn’t do anything.🤣
This was so empowering!!! I love it, Alyssa!!!
As someone who struggles with guilt and shame every day, this was so powerful and invigorating to read! Beautiful and inspiring work :)