V * R.

V * R...

Your spirit, Your beauty, Your purpose, Your light, Your dark...

Through YOU, arose a new ME

You and I are so aligned,

two different branches on the same tree, two different birds perched by the same leaf, the ladybird that easily cries, the bee that's just a little camera shy... we've held the most pleasant and painful spaces for each other, so vulnerable, so safe, I always will be in your embrace,

the ladybird that easily cries, you've dried her soaked eyes, the bee that's just a little camera shy, I've lovingly held your sighs... so that we may fly, and our energy will return to the place we first hatched, we will return...

together again:)<3

Because we matched, we will never fully be detached, so our friendship won't crash; healthily, it'll always be latched.

It always will be, it always has been, protected by loving spirits that helped us traverse, even as we heard the word "pause" from the Universe. I'm receiving your signs and symbols, I'm sending an abundance back, in abundance always and forevermore.

Everything I feel, everything YOU are, YOU are everything.

You deserve everything you desire, you are deserving of the safest, purest and most lovingly aligned love outside of the love I'll always send and share with you.

This bond, our bond, the gratitude is immense, overwhelming and magical. I'm so happy. I'm so proud. I'm so in love with the experience that was, that is, me and you, me and V, I love you always darling, i'm so excited to hear and see more of the rose your blooming into, thank you for you, thank you for helping me find more me, thank you for helping me connect more to me, through we, because you V will always be my darling Bumble Bee.

For always being my first of everything, all the before's were first somethings, YOU will always be my first everything, and I am so honoured, proud and grateful it is you.

My dear VR, as I type, we've set each other free to return to the sea,

We will arrive back at the same tree

as we've always been connected,

from root to antenna,

like skin stained with henna,

right now fading,

So we may draw that love onto the skin once more.

I knew you, even before

my darling Bumble Bee, I'm so happy to be alongside you at the top, someday, real soon, travelling, laughing, conversing with you, the family, the friends, the loved ones, that shared love never ends... your journey, your growth, your unfurling, your upward spiralling, the most aligned and beautiful love for your soul, i'm so excited for it all for you and for me...

101.

I'm going to rush towards you again, with open arms of gratitude and love, as I always have for you,

of friendship and connection we built first and will keep on forming.

To tell you the more I've found in me because of you, that grandly started with you, that will continue with you and allllllll the love, beauty, prosperity, and abundance we're effortlessly attracting and turning into,

We're shedding tears (19/01), we're dispelling old fears (18/01), celebrating new selves (17/01), dancing with marvellous manifested spells (16/01), recognising reflected growth (15/01), seeing the you in me, the me in you, the both (14/01)...

I could go back and back, but we're not there,

That would be an honour, yes.

But also a form of lack,

Yes, we unpack,

but we didn't shed tears, dispel old fears, celebrate new selves, dance with marvellous manifested spells, recognise growth, separately and together blend the both, to go back...

We knew no more repressing, no more regressing, now we're digesting

the lessons, yes

But the blessings, there's even more to express.

I'm so proud of you, of me, of us, for you, for me, for us!

I will always be happy for you, I will always be happy because of you, I will always be happy knowing you, holding space for you, laughing with you, connecting with you and all you'll keep growing into...

I'm so grateful I can't even FULLY write about it...

It peacefully, lovingly and currently bitterly sits inside of me, on my heart, with my soul.

I am with you forevermore, Vannessa Rose. The everything you are and the everything you were for me, and will be, I can cry millions of tears flown from a ripple of gratitude, appreciation, joy, bittersweetness that life juxtaposingly always provides,

so that we may keep on growing and evolving,

so that we may keep on flowing and revolving

into more.

I'll see you at the top, I've merged with you in the middle and loved you from the beginning.

We are each other's turning points,

and so we'll turn back into each other,

lovingly, steadily, comfortably and eventually as you're free to fly back to me, whenever and however... I am ALWAYS open for you, V, my motherfucking bestie.

From a thumb to a finger,

Mi amor, mi amiga

We deserve so much, I deserve so much, you deserve so much. I love that I see that in me more because of you. I love that I know that more because of you. I pray you know and see more of the love you are because of me.

I am lovable,

You are lovable,

Thank you for proving that to me, and the more I now see because of the reflection that is you and me V.

Love you, darling, love you bitchhh, love you always. This is just a piece of our puzzle, one plant in our ever-growing garden, in written words for the world to see how much you very lovingly and wonderfully changed and shaped me.

See you soon,

see you later alligator...

in a while crocodile...

I thank you, I thank me

for letting a part of us go, so we may grow, so that we may return to each other

even more whole

Love forever,

from Ladybird to Bumble Bee...xoxoxox.