The Soul That Never Felt From Here

Born Human, But Not Only That

As we see a body being born, many of us assume that that’s all there is. We are that baby, that person who is born, so we are automatically human. But our essence isn’t visible. It’s felt.

I knew I wasn’t from here since I was a child.

The Night the Stars Woke Me Up

When I was nine years old, I was watching the clear, starry sky. I suddenly felt terribly homesick, and I literally felt a huge hole inside my heart, like a piece was missing. It deeply hurt my soul, my heart, and everything else.

I wanted to go back home painfully and desperately, but I was aware that my journey on this plane had just begun. At least I knew who I was looking for and why I was born here. The stars are still a wake-up point for me. Even in the astral world, they are used to waking me up.

At that moment, I prayed, cried, and begged God. But that wasn’t enough. I went to my room and begged on my knees. I knew I was looking for my twin flame. I knew I was born into a dysfunctional family, so I would pursue what was real and reject what was fake as well.

Not Physical — A Soul Recognition

Obviously, I didn’t see it in a sexual way, even though I had early access to things a child shouldn’t have had. Still, I was just looking for the deepest emotional and spiritual connection — the soul bond that lives as one soul in two bodies here on Earth.

Right now, I can tell you that I met the soul I was looking for, and I feel immensely grateful and indefinitely blessed. I cannot explain the enormous difference between what we imagine and what we actually live. I always believed and imagined it many times, but living it is on another level.

My search lasted twenty-eight years, and I went through hell. But it was so worth it to find the one.

Healing Before Union

I had to be prepared. I was neglected, abused, and traumatized since childhood, so I had to go through a very long process of healing, regaining balance, and even finding myself again.

Before you think about a relationship — especially one of this magnitude — make sure you heal most of your past trauma, including emotional codependency, PTSD, and abandonment issues.

Never think that just because you were deeply hurt, you don’t deserve love or that you will never find it. That’s the trap of the darkness. It wants you to feel worthless, useless, and stuck, so you never pursue what is meant for you.

From Codependency to Inner Peace

It’s important to focus on healing low self-esteem, lack of confidence, and reconnecting to your own body — especially if you were sexually abused. That experience can split you in two, but you are one.

The process is truly painful. You move from emotional codependency — where you need love and can’t feel happy or at peace because you’re not in a relationship — to a point where you feel happy and at peace by yourself, but you still want a relationship. It’s a huge difference.

You can compare emotional codependency to using drugs, because you need a relationship as you’re afraid of being alone, and you even feel unsafe that way. You can’t say no. You sacrifice yourself by putting other people’s needs first and completely neglecting your own. You need them to save you, fix you, and even protect you. That’s how you know you are codependent.

When you’re codependent, you can’t nurture yourself, so a relationship becomes the drug that supplies what you lack. The problem is that it’s temporary. It won’t give you what you need forever.

It’s truly important to be self-sufficient and learn to give yourself the love you want to give — and even the love you need. You can reject or deny the idea, but you deserve freedom.

A Message for You

I hope that through my experience, you will not only accept your spiritual identity but also have the courage to heal. I know you’re brave, and I believe in you. I hope you know it too.

Feel free to comment about your spiritual or even physical experiences. I’m not here only to talk but mainly to listen. I would love to hear your thoughts. It would be an amazing experience.