Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Word of the Day:供養
I haven't found a good way to channel the vocabulary I am learning. I am incorporating it with my writing as a theme for each thing but there should be some sort of system to channel it into anki. I am close to figuring it out but I think it also requires some editing which I haven't participated in quite yet.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 以心伝心
I am feeling a bit manic right now or I feel like I get a little crazy thinking about Sebastian. I find myself sounding a bit desperate in my opinion. I brought up Carl Jung and the Friends of Carl Jung up in Portland, basically spewing out 101 Psychology bullshit. ( He's a councilor so I am sure he studied that ). I need to just back off though and I know that this obsessiveness is a mixture of me being stressed and wanting a distraction, with a combination of my infatuation with him.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day:教師
I need to schedule a math tutor. I think it is possible now since it is passed the 11th. My advisor I missed sent me an email and I got back to her when I could. It would be nice if we could handle it over email before the appointment but I understand if that isn't the case. Either way, the email was sent.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 数学
I am trying to figure out how I want to navigate my 3 computers. I have the School computer set up on my dining table, but I am wondering if I should change it out for the couch one. Currently the couch one is my Personal computer. I was using it to buy stuff on amazon and stuff like that. I was also using it to input some stuff for my Anki and converting my physical notes to digital. I guess I can do it on the dining table.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 一番. Top Story - September 2025.
I finally think I am back to my schedule again but I am so giddy talking to Sebastian today. I know it is because of the weed a little bit but I am enjoying the heck out of it. Some of the enthusiasm might be also because I got the clean bill of health from the doctors and I don't have to worry about dying from an orgasm. Hopefully at least.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 洗濯
I put on pants from the bottom of my laundry basket and they are obviously stinky but I am going to the hospital so I am feeling like I don't really care. I sort of want to put perfume but I am not sure if that is allowed or not. I even worried about the deodorant but I put a little on
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 鳴き声
It is the day before my procedure and I have been laying in bed all day doom scrolling. I decided to buy a pizza and with tears in my eyes I told myself, " You deserve to eat ". I'll probably cry until the pizza gets here but I really think I need to get it out. I have a lot I need to process so I am thinking I'll get to write a few stories here before I chow down on some pie.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 自己紹介
I had sex with a Filipino guy. It was sort of like heaven. He was just caressing me and kissing me so much, but looking in his eyes it wasn't love but he held space for me and I am really grateful for that. We did fuck without a condom a bit so I am worried about possible pregnancy ( highly unlikely ) and.... well I have HPV... I feel very ashamed I did that to him, he could have possibly contracted that and I would be the one who knowingly gave such a kind soul that. I could've waited until it was out of my system ( 2 years ) before doing anything like that.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 速攻
I slept with this guy named Bobby. He was this handsome half Japanese half white guy. He has a youtube channel with like 4k followers so that's neat but he's a complete tool otherwise. He just led me on and then proceeded to ghost me when I tried to follow up, thinking maybe the first time was just awkward but he did no such thing.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: しぶしぶ
It is my second day back at school and I am overwhelmed I am deciding to just bring my todo list from home so I don't slack off. I sort of wasted time last night binging Tinder and watching guys jack off. absolutely no one is good enough for even a one night stand so it was highly disappointing. On top of that I was crying about Jahon the whole time and really drained my energy. I guess I got so high I started regressing or something and I am just done.
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 景品
I haven't thought about a word of the day yet. Even though today was supposed to be Japanese study, I didn't really bother studying any sort of list of vocab or grammar but I figure I could go through my old list and just refresh myself on things I already learned...
By Kayla McIntosh5 months ago in Confessions
