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Dry Heat
I am not a violent person but nothing would make me angrier than my dad constantly asserting that the scorching Arizona summer was “dry heat” and therefore not as bad as it could be. The lack of humidity, he would assure us, would allow our bodies to cool themselves. Bullshit. You had to think twice before touching anything in this hellish desert; accidentally grazing the metal part your car or your keys would feel like taking a tray out of the oven without gloves. Even our backyard pool, which initially excited me, was turned into a sauna from the months of May to September.
By Shawn Daring5 years ago in Confessions
This isn't goodbye
It's know ones fault really it's just something that wasn't expected or foreseen, by the time you read this I would have already boarded a plain for destinations unknown this will be a new life a fresh start! There's know point looking for me or calling as I've already taken care of everything in in other words i won't be contactable until i find my forever home, Once I've established myself I will be in touch. I'm sorry I know that this is going to come as a shock to some of you as you all thought I was in a loving happy marriage unfortunately it wasn't as it seemed turn's out I'm a better actor than I thought! I was desperately lonely & so insecure of my future. I'm not shaw when I finally realised I was know longer in love with this man all I know is that I saw inside myself & realised I didn't want to end up like our Parents, I want an open honest happy relationship with someone who know's nothing about me or my background, I want to spend the last part of my life being happy, not constantly questioning my choices this time! I'm jumping feet first with know general plan really other than I now want to be happy, I've realised that I've been miserable and living in a loveless marriage for Mmmmm well who knows how many years I guess? don't get me wrong I will always love the father of my children but I finally realised I wasn't in love with him, Can you imagine how draining & exhausting verbal abuse can be especially when that person is drunk it becomes to overwhelming & the fact that he never listens to me, he never stuck up for me he left me in jail, I was never secure nor did I ever feel secure he always made me question myself & I always felt inadequate, what I've realised is that everything has always been one sided in our marriage why else do we have seperate bank accounts? This certainly didn't help matters much it just made me more aware how selfish he really is, I was becoming numb not showing any emotion it was almost non-exisiting, I asked him if he could pay for me to have surgery when he received his inheritance as I wanted what was called a Mummy make over, which would have cost $25.000 & he said No, I think thats when I realised it was a one way street all his way & nothing my way, I thought of all the things I'd sacrificed over the years & why I'd done that or made those choices, the more I thought about it the more I didn't like where I was in life every year I would contribute to the house in one way or another, I'd paid for the solar panels so it would cut the cost of our power bill just so I wouldn't have to listen to him whinning about how much the power cost, I paid for the patio so it would take the sun off the back walls & so it would finish our house off, I'm always using my money for quite a lot if I wanted a social life if we needed extra shopping for all bits and bobs here & their, I often wondered how much longer I was going to put up with this person that I use to love & whom I held in high regard? What was the triggering point for me truthfully honestly! See these are the things I've been over thinking about for way to long, I really don't want to think about them any more, I just want to enjoy what life I have left not having to over think Issues's, never having to worry about anyone other than myself! Selfish I know but when you look into yourself like I have you realise that life is to short and when you look at how you've spent your life you automatically realise how much you've wasted it on a person who doesn't value you or your thoughts at all, when reality hits that's when you start looking into yourself as to what your going to do how are you going to change things for you to have a better life, or are you going to continue on this roundabout ride leading to know where except for where you've just come from.
By Roberta Russell5 years ago in Confessions
I Dropped Out of Law School and I Felt Like a Failure
Is this something I wanted? Yes! So why did I feel so shitty about it? I have always been the type of person who did well in academics. I graduated with a high gpa in high school, a high gpa in college, and became valedictorian in my Master's program. This is not me bragging, this is just me painting a picture of someone who usually succeeds at anything related to academics.
By Nicky5 years ago in Confessions
Breaking The Seal
I’m almost positive that we have all experienced some embarrassing moments in our lives. Those instances that make us cringe so we deliberately filed them away into a mental cabinet which we have purposefully kept under lock and key. The hope is that with time, we may be able to reopen some files and laugh at some of these circumstances or we can just keep them locked up and never think about them again.
By Ali SP5 years ago in Confessions
Poking the Bear
Firsts: Poking the Bear There are a lot of people out there one should avoid pissing off, I must have missed that day at school, for I continue to do such things despite the knowledge it could backfire on me. I’ve done my best to call out a lot of these bears, with words and actions and after a lifetime of doing just this, there’s no way I can quit cold turkey.
By Gregory Dolan Dies5 years ago in Confessions
Alone
Firsts: Alone Part Two When Mt. St. Helens erupted on May 18th, 1980 my world at Eastern Washington University was turned upside down, sideways and every which way but loose. I was having adventures before then, but after the eruption I erupted myself a tad.
By Gregory Dolan Dies5 years ago in Confessions
Alone
Firsts. Alone Flying to Spokane, Washington on my way to Eastern Washington University I had several things parading through my alleged mind. First and foremost I didn’t know a soul and I’d never been up this far north. My parents had gone to a thing called Marriage Encounter at EWU and liked the area, so they strongly suggested I make my way up there, and of course I did.
By Gregory Dolan Dies5 years ago in Confessions
The Wrong Caesar
Day one, new job, two hours down. I’m riding that disorienting wave particular to new recruits: hyper speed meets slow motion as I mentally pin names to all the new faces, grapple with the archaic computer system, wonder when coffee happens, fantasise about gin.
By Megan Anderson5 years ago in Confessions
The Worst Date, War
I step out of the restaurant, the chilly air breaking the warm bubble from around me. I draw in a sharp breath, hoping it calms my frayed nerves. I look down at the slowly spreading Merlot stain on my shirt, another bought of anger surges through me. Not only did I have the absolute worst date of my life, but now one of my favorite shirts is ruined. I forage through my disastrous purse for some sort of napkin or cloth, but my luck is sorely lacking tonight. I growl lightly to myself, and tightly shut my eyes, hoping to gain some semblance of sanity. My parent's disappointed faces pop into my head, cracking me further. Another tragic date for my parents to blame on my lack of… well everything. I run the events of tonight back, trying to pinpoint where I went wrong.
By Gigi Madzarovic5 years ago in Confessions
