Family
To The Grave
You pour yourself another glass of rum, this time with no mixer. It’s your fourth of the night, and your vision begins to blur. You feel warm and friendly, smiling as your sister-in-law passes by you, stroking your shoulder gently with her supple hand. Her auburn hair sways before your eyes, and you find it hard to take your eyes away from it. You feel another tap on your shoulder moments later. You turn towards it, and see your wife, ‘Having a good time?’ she asks, smiling.
By Cailin5 years ago in Confessions
The Autobiography of a Fractured Soul
This is not a traditional autobiography. I will not talk about my entire life story. Instead, I wish to focus in on a few key moments in my life and write about them as if they are their own short stories. These 'short stories' will not be in chronological order of my life. I hope this doesn't put anyone off from reading. There will be no set schedule as to when I will write. I must warn you, some of the stories I will share are not pleasant and are extremely personal. I only wish to have somewhere to write about my experiences in life without judgement or ridicule. Thank you for reading this.
By Cailin5 years ago in Confessions
This isn't goodbye
It's know ones fault really it's just something that wasn't expected or foreseen, by the time you read this I would have already boarded a plain for destinations unknown this will be a new life a fresh start! There's know point looking for me or calling as I've already taken care of everything in in other words i won't be contactable until i find my forever home, Once I've established myself I will be in touch. I'm sorry I know that this is going to come as a shock to some of you as you all thought I was in a loving happy marriage unfortunately it wasn't as it seemed turn's out I'm a better actor than I thought! I was desperately lonely & so insecure of my future. I'm not shaw when I finally realised I was know longer in love with this man all I know is that I saw inside myself & realised I didn't want to end up like our Parents, I want an open honest happy relationship with someone who know's nothing about me or my background, I want to spend the last part of my life being happy, not constantly questioning my choices this time! I'm jumping feet first with know general plan really other than I now want to be happy, I've realised that I've been miserable and living in a loveless marriage for Mmmmm well who knows how many years I guess? don't get me wrong I will always love the father of my children but I finally realised I wasn't in love with him, Can you imagine how draining & exhausting verbal abuse can be especially when that person is drunk it becomes to overwhelming & the fact that he never listens to me, he never stuck up for me he left me in jail, I was never secure nor did I ever feel secure he always made me question myself & I always felt inadequate, what I've realised is that everything has always been one sided in our marriage why else do we have seperate bank accounts? This certainly didn't help matters much it just made me more aware how selfish he really is, I was becoming numb not showing any emotion it was almost non-exisiting, I asked him if he could pay for me to have surgery when he received his inheritance as I wanted what was called a Mummy make over, which would have cost $25.000 & he said No, I think thats when I realised it was a one way street all his way & nothing my way, I thought of all the things I'd sacrificed over the years & why I'd done that or made those choices, the more I thought about it the more I didn't like where I was in life every year I would contribute to the house in one way or another, I'd paid for the solar panels so it would cut the cost of our power bill just so I wouldn't have to listen to him whinning about how much the power cost, I paid for the patio so it would take the sun off the back walls & so it would finish our house off, I'm always using my money for quite a lot if I wanted a social life if we needed extra shopping for all bits and bobs here & their, I often wondered how much longer I was going to put up with this person that I use to love & whom I held in high regard? What was the triggering point for me truthfully honestly! See these are the things I've been over thinking about for way to long, I really don't want to think about them any more, I just want to enjoy what life I have left not having to over think Issues's, never having to worry about anyone other than myself! Selfish I know but when you look into yourself like I have you realise that life is to short and when you look at how you've spent your life you automatically realise how much you've wasted it on a person who doesn't value you or your thoughts at all, when reality hits that's when you start looking into yourself as to what your going to do how are you going to change things for you to have a better life, or are you going to continue on this roundabout ride leading to know where except for where you've just come from.
By Roberta Russell5 years ago in Confessions
[The Laundry Can Wait]
Lets take a small trip back in time pre pandemic when our lives were full of running. Full of sports, full of school and packing lunches. Weekends were spent in crowded grocery stores. Stopping by your loved ones houses to stop and say hi! Running to your grandmother's because she made "extra" of your favorite dessert. Now, lets add in a full time job on top of it all and making sure you remember snacks for little league! You were invincible , your schedule was engraved in your soul and you knew no different . This is your life you made and are proud of and have become so used to !
By Katie Gilliland5 years ago in Confessions
A Drunken Bad Time
I will never live this night down because it happened in front of my whole family and the family that would be connected to my family. It was supposed to be a joyous occasion and I guess I was the one trying to live my best life even though I don't remember the whole thing.
By Brian Anonymous5 years ago in Confessions
The Oblivious Young Husband
“Don’t worry honey,” the older lady at the wedding rehearsal dinner leaned over the table conspiratorially and whispered to me, “he’ll learn tact one day.” First off, she was referring to my husband, the best man at the wedding. And second of all, she was wrong. I don’t think he ever did!
By Maria Calderoni5 years ago in Confessions
Don't Tell the Kids Mom's Got a Potty Mouth
If you take enough time to read what moms say on social media, you're likely to see a lot of them joking about how they're the kind of parent who swears a lot. It's regarded as humorous because generally speaking, parents are expected to maintain a certain image to their children, so of course a mother who drops the "F bomb" is going to be funny, edgy, and cool. I respect that kind of parent, and I find them great to have around as friends. In our home, with our four children, we tend to censor our language a bit; either way to live is okay, but I save my most colorful language for when the kids are in bed. That's just how we operate, and it works for us!
By Dani Banani5 years ago in Confessions
A Special Kind of Mom Guilt
I think it is safe to say that most moms are extremely excited to bring their little on into the world. The idea of bringing a new life into the world can be daunting, especially as a first time mom. Therefore, you do everything you can to be prepared as the big day approaches. You build a birth plan, organize the nursery, and assemble all the seemingly millions of pieces of furniture that your little one requires.
By Shelby Schulten5 years ago in Confessions
Open/Closed
A few months ago, my husband and I decided to open up our marriage. We have been together for over 11 years, married for 7. In theory, it's a great idea. Who wouldn't want to have some no-strings-attached fun with someone and then come home to your husband? Isn't that the dream most guys have? I thought so, too.
By Steven George5 years ago in Confessions
Aunt Rachel
To my Aunt Rachel, you are a strong woman. I have known you all my life. It wasn’t until recently though that I’ve really gotten to know you. I’ve always known you were Nana’s sister. I’ve always known you’ve liked those Rafellos as a present. I’ve known you were childhood friends with Uncle Dave before you becam his wife.
By Victoria Blitz5 years ago in Confessions
