Word of the Day:酸味

Hmm.. it seems outside forces are wanting to piss me off today. Yes it is a man, I don't know who it is, but I guess I will leave that alone.

I somehow am now 8 days behind so, I am.. well trying not to think too poorly on that.

I am glad that motherfucker left. I didn't need him in my life. I just talked to him because I had to.

It is ok that they are testing me, because, I don't worry abou that. I never worry about testing. If you.. Yes, if you see shit and don't say anything, then that is a fucking crime but I am visually compromised at the moment so, whoever thought that was a good... mm. I guess I decided that was necessary.

Basically working with the faceless men.

I will calm down soon. I know my tongue sort of... deterred some other things coming in so, that makes me annoyed but, I will just prepare in that time. ALSO

Fuck Victor Frankl, he should've died when his wife died.

My dreams were also stolen from me last night. I guess I just was exhausted. Then I wake up to hostility. It is annoying.

I guess because I have work ahead of me. 2 pages... geez.

Yea, I see two pixies right now and I am trying to decide if I am in human or elf mode. I think... yea, it is better to be human in most cases, right?

Of course, there is more than one way to torture someone.

I just happen to be... well yea the word inept came to mind, but who would want to actually be cruel to someone?

The thing is, when you do it, you start to like it... like the cloying taste of root beer.

Mcintosh means " Child of the Leader "... but if you think of what it sounds like to a Greek, it is actually funny. It seems like a blessing.

Unfortunately, I am from the Spiderman perspective that, with great power comes great responsibility.

Ah I see... why my dad had me say my name so many times. He didn't want me to get lost...

I don't think I am lost.

Saturn Conjunt Neptune..

Geez, now I get it. That's a very astringent snap back to things. Well like I told one of my readers, this is going to be a hard time for me considering all the things coming up right now.

I also know I scheduled an appointment today and I am wondering if I should make it... it is for in office so.. I am like... well,

I need to be realistic as to whether it is a good idea for me to even go. I mean, yes it is a lot of.. shit to swallow, but I mean.. Yea. If I am to be honest with me book working, I need to have some personal integrity with this.

Yea... that is the thing, we usually prepare for appointment so, I think if I can't do the necessary things within the hour, then I will call.

But I have two pages fo Vocal, lol fuck. I don't know which will be done but obviously this music bobs so much I can do like 10 pages of vocal at this point.

The thing is, I am lacking words.

Maybe I need to talk to the sailor?

He said his legs were bothering him though, I think he might just need to rest.

Yeaaaa it is very hard to......... Ah they are concerned where I feel death? Yea, I can sense those things as well.

If you listen to Sabina, yes there is a fucking death instinct.

She told no lies.

... Yea it is hard to know which mistress is "the one" LOL

I don't want to think of that too much..

Yea... death, but... abundance.

You can feel it swelling, and like a raindrop on the top of a balloon, it is so hard to know which way it will fall.