Word of the Day:炙り出し

I am looking at my todo list. Making good progress, gathered plenty of time to take a break or do somethings more loosely, but I just feel really on ball right now and don't want to deter the momentum.

I need to watch something in Japanese to get another word for today but, I am not really worried about that now. I am actually excited about something in the future so, it is kind of fun. I am very cautious of it though. I am still using the computer that the hacker accessed my files from so, I am very careful of what to reveal at this moment while still trying to do my "job". It would take me 2 hours to change set up to one of the other computers I have and it doesn't feel worth it at this time. I am always a " How many birds can I kill with this one stone? " Sort of person. I get off on killing at least 6 at a time. I guess that is my version of perfectionism. Anything less than 4 feels like I am not doing enough.

My computer needs to be updated but I feel like, I don't want to do that if it would possibly affect the computer tech person's ability to figure out who remote viewed/controlled my computer last week.

Yes I was being more flamboyant and emotional, but I feel like... I am allowed to react to abuse/stress. It would be weird if I didn't. And if that is expected of me, then it feels inherently cruel and the desires of an improper person/system.

Talking to RCO, I was able to organize a meeting to get another PSW but that leaves me home bound for the most part, which probably means the rest of the month, if I am honest. I will attempt to do my homework and such but, I am having to contact the Bank, DMV, etc. Lots of things without a car anymore. And very dubious government programs that have their limitation and, possible affiliations to my problems. So yes, very cautious at this time.

I had a funny blast from the past with remembering how I spent like 2 months learning everything about MBTI. I even went into memorizing each types cognitive functions, loops, and possible developments. Through this introspection I did rediscover my true Fi ( Introverted Feeling ) placement in the Tertiary position.

Compared to an Fe ( Extroverted Feeling ) placement that focuses more on the hive mentality, or appealing to the masses, Fi values the individual; the subjective perspective and its expression is more valued than whatever is more widely accepted or even required.

Tertiary position usually indicates an unrefined possession of this quality. Much like burping or farting, it isn't as controlled as someone consciously playing piano, lets say.

I used to listen to Michael Pierce mostly for his insights on this but anyone with heavy Sensing placements will find him boring and won't retain any of his knowledge. ( Small but reliable pool of data for this observation )

I am not sure what I am trying to convey with this one page/story but, basically I am having to do a lot of revamps in my personal life, leading me to have to make revamps in my schooling as well so, I am charting out the steps I need to make in this, making fair progress. But at the same time, I am human and also need to work on things that don't necessarily break me to the point of ruin as well.