Word of the Day: 賄い

The algorithim decided to have me hear a song from like the Now That's What I Call Music 6.

I was like 11 years old when this came out.

It would be sort of worthwhile maybe to see if I could get a job nearby here to supplement my money.

That is something I failed to do in the last apartment. I couldn't secure a job anywhere despite being as close to downtown as I was.

Maybe that was the selling point of the place, but my neighbors were too clingy and it stressed me out just leaving my door. Plus, I was struggling with my relationship with Yuuichiro and my dad just calling me out of nowhere.

I was also trying to create Pixie Road, so I was spending a lot of time streaming and trying to get that off the ground.

I don't know why but I felt that was like a huge boost in motivation. Like just remembering working hard on a project I actually liked, also with the nostalgic memories through the music. It is like being a kid again.

I just looked at my calendar noticing when the next mercury retrograde is... and it is in Pisces.... fuck. Why is there so many Pisces shit happening now? It isn't even March yet. We don't need an escalation of March, bruh.

I am happy to have the end happen. Like, even though this music is nostalgic and I am remembering things from when I was younger, I actually feel like, I am able to just gather the energy into a positive future.

Like, I am excited to fill out my todo list now.

I even sketched some pictures last night, I haven't drawn in such a long time.

Yea, I feel like if I do that it would just be some sort of crazy nostalgia trip and I'd leave after a while. But I dunno, I guess I have to consider that as a part of the process.

I actually didn't mind going there. It was a cute refreshing energy. Less dense than what I have been in lately so, even though it wasn't like a complete win, it was good for me, I think.

I just bought really easy food this time: a loaf of bread, a savory dip and a sweet dip. I don't have to worry about meals, I just graze as I need. I also decided to put coffee back on the menu because, I have creamers in the fridge and I refuse to put it in my green tea.

Also it is kind of taxing to look at several reels of food, trying to decide what you want to eat. That is partially why I wasn't eating. Money was a thing, but it was also like, " Ok I have a limited amount of money, what do I want to spend it on? "

Eggs and tomatoes sort of beat out everything else for some reason. I was like, yea that is what I want. Eggs, Tomatoes, garlic, butter. yep. it is simple but like I guess I am making bread the main focal point of my whole food thing. Whatever goes with bread right now, I guess.

My Iberian DNA is coming to the full front. What sort of surprised me though is, my favorite cottage cheese tasted too salty now. I don't know how I will eat it. It is crazy what enhances when you try to take care of your health through food.

I find it a bit funny I am going full home maker mode right now with the home made dye on the stove and trying to plant pumpkins and onions and shit. I like it though.