Writing is hard

Writing can be hard work, especially when you are not good with grammar or punctuation and spelling. I need help like Grammarly, but I just wish I were good at writing, knew the grammar rules and everything you want to know. Something sad, I’m bad at math too, but that's a story for another time, but I know a few rules when putting a comma, for example, apples, oranges, bananas and grapes, stuff like that and uppercase letters for the beginning of a sentence and city or country and names, little basic things like that, so pathetic (i don’t know why i’m telling people this).

So embarrassing, like I’m 34, I should know more, but my learning disability ruins it for me, thanks to genetics, and for my mom going through a stressful pregnancy when she had me, I had a lack of oxygen to my umbilical cord. I wish that had never happened, or if that was the reason, and it was just my parents' crappy genetics gave to me, like I said, I wish I were good at writing or say language arts, it’s a terrible feeling. Shout out to Grammarly, thank you so much, whoever created it.

Maybe next time I'll write about my embarrassing math disability. Anyway, it feels nice to write it all out, all my struggles, but they suck, oh boy! Do they suck it's like Mother Nature couldn't give me a break, she had to make it ten times harder for me, I know I sound whiny, I just need to vent it out on this platform, On this platform, I just wish someone out there is going through the same things I'm dealing with and how they manage it, so I don't go out of my mind sometimes.

Do they feel the same as I do? Do they worry about the future like I do (soooo fucking much), and more. Hell, is there anyone on here who feels the same? It's nice to talk with those people, but I'm shy and awkward. But give me time to talk, and we can talk and write we can tell how we are the same.

Okay, more about writing, why are there rules anyway, like clauses, nouns, verbs and adjectives, they are a pain and get why they are there, and some of them I get but also forget, it slips out of my brain and runs off somewhere, like where do you go information locked away she is not going to need it or lets make it harder for her shall we.

My brain is useless with language arts, even now, it's useless writing this, it feels like it's taking forever to write, plus it doesn't help that I need to write 600 words. Amazingly, I'm up to 474 words, getting kinda close to 600 words. That's another thing, my expression of words is really off! Trying to find the right words to say is fucking difficult; to say it with fluency is rough.

But I try my best, this idiot could do. Writing is hard when you're not natural at it, can be a bitch 530 words 532, 533, 534 words. I think I could do it couple more words to make a longer read, which I kinda get, even though it's frustrating for me.

You guys on here rock at your stories, so don't feel frustrated when you write and stressed out when you write, you're killin' it. I wish I were as good as you guys keep it up, one of you could publish a great book.

Writing is hard