My 2020 Story

Finishing 2019 with the fears of being homeless but not jobless was scary but 2020 helped me find a place close to work with a friendly face to get me there. My boyfriend was there to support me through it all. 2020 has been tough but without him I wouldn’t have survived.

I lost a lot of things in 2020 but gained more. Scrolling through my tik tok and seeing the changes I went through during that year was inspiring. Yes I may have gained weight but I was happy. I changed my hair twice in the beginning of the year cutting all of it off so it just sat below my ears. I felt fabulous, carefree and happy. It may have been a dodgy job that my room mate did but I didn’t care it was the best thing I did.

My best friend moved in with me and my roommate it was great it was what we always wanted what we said we would do. I should have listened to the people around me saying it was a bad choice. It was good while it lasted but things took a turn. Her ex boyfriend came along and put things in a turn. She was no longer around. When they broke up she didn’t come to me for comfort when I said she could she chose to cry on the shoulder of our roommate. Who would have thought she’d choose someone else over me. It hurt in the beginning but my boyfriend was there to hold me when no one else did.

Things in the house were rough. My friend and roommate were always loud and running passed my room at all hours of then night when I was trying to sleep. They partied on weekdays and did nothing on weekends. I never joined in because I didn’t want to turn up to work hungover. Soon they stopped inviting me to things and pretended I wasn’t there.

I’d hide in my room playing games with my boyfriend because that always cheered me up. I stopped buying groceries for my friend as she didn’t have a job and wasn’t looking. Soon after that we stopped talking as much barely going to get coffee likd we used to when I got home instead I went and got myself ready to play games with my boyfriend.

Come my 19th birthday I had planned to go camping but it was proving hard. Camps were closed due to Covid-19 and due to the never ending rain. We ended up finding a place at last but my friend decided to ditch me because our roommate was feeding her lies. My boyfriend didn’t like her because she would always ditch me when I needed her. In February she chose to go to her boyfriends party then stay with me to help my boyfriend have a good 18th. So when she ditched me to go home to party it hurt a lot. The next weekend was the 1st anniversary of my pops death. There are still a lot of things I can’t do anymore because I miss my pop too much when I do them.

My boyfriend couldn’t pick me up so I had to ask my roommate by this stage I’ve had a few falling outs with him and didn’t want to be in the same car as him. He said he would but he was picking my friend up first. We he got there it was late. I got in the car and my friend didn’t even acknowledge me. It hurt so much to know she knew it was the anniversary of my pop and she bluntly ignored me. It was a painful trip home I couldn’t wait to get home to cry to my boyfriend. He FaceTimed me and said it okay we don’t need them it’s us against the world. He was right.

That weekend was hard. Not only was it the anniversary of pop but my mum and granny got into an argument. So things were intense with my family. Come Christmas time things were still rocky between them.

In the middle of the year. My roommate decided to kick my out. No reason except the fact I didn’t party with them. Things weren’t looking good my boyfriend and I had no rental history so finding a place was hard. Right before the date I was going to be homeless. The real estate found a place that was perfect for us. We moved it the next weekend. As I was taking my last steps through the house I had called home with my friend and roommate, she hadn’t even come to say goodbye when I gave my keys to my roommate and said goodbye.

I haven’t spoken or seen her since and I’m okay with that. I’ve seen my roommate since then and it was still awkward. Since then my friendship with a girl from school grew stronger I now go out and have lunch with her and spend so much time with her.

Since moving in with my boyfriend life has been good. I get to cook food without my roommate complaining. My boyfriend gives me all the love and attention I need and the best part is I don’t have to say bye at the end of the weekend anymore.

I bought my boyfriend a pc and I got his. I took up streaming and built a small platform. My veiwers are amazing and I don’t know what I would do without them. They always make my day better as much as I make there’s better. I’m still not at subscriber level yet but I’m getting there with each day.

Now as the end of the year gets closer I get told there’s a chance I won’t be coming back to work due to numbers being down so now I’ve got to look for a job. I had 2 interviews 1 successful. Many declined jobs. As I go into 2021 I’m still looking.

I may have lost my best friend but I gained a stronger relationship with my boyfriend who is now my best friend and someone I can’t live without. I gained more friendships this year which overcome the lost. I may still be struggling with finding a job but I’m not giving up.

As I lie here in bed writing my story I feel better knowing that when you read this it might inspire you to right your own 2020 story.