Open Letter To My Soulmate...

Dear Soulmate, I wanted to take this moment and say a few things to you. Even though we haven't talked in a while and probably never will again, I wanted to take a moment to thank you for a few things if that's okay. But first I want to explain how I met you, you came into my life when I was without a doubt broken. I had just gotten sexually assaulted the year before and was recovering from an alcohol addiction. I hadn't slept in over a year and I was an absolute mess. To this day I'm still trying to figure out how and why you dealt with me. You helped me pick up the pieces of my ridicolous life, you helped me stay sober when I was really struggling. You were there for me through it all and you don't even know how much that meant to me. Looking back I realize how badly I treated you and I'm sorry for that. Despite how hurt and broken I was that was no excuse to be so mean to you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for treating you like shit. I'm sorry for ending things the way I did. I'm sorry for being such a project. We lost touch for years and then you came back into my life. Again when I was broken beyond belief.

I had just broken up with my abusive ex and was dealing with more heartache and trauma then I could ever imagine. I was crying every night and wishing for a way out. Then you came along and made me feel better. You helped me pick up the pieces of my ridiculous life. You let me vent to you and cry if I needed to. You stayed up all night and talked to me when I was feeling terrible. I'm sorry you lost sleep but thank you for doing that.

Thank you for everything, Thank you for caring enough about me to be there for me. Thank you for letting me vent to you when you were most definitley tired of me. Thank you for helping me feel better when I was broken beyond belief. Thank you for letting me flirt with you just to make myself feel better. Thank you for complimenting me and letting me say Good Morning to you and caring about me through it all. Thank you for giving me something that nobody else could've in that moment in time. Care. You cared about me through it all. Even if I treated you like absolute garbage and I'm sorry about that. You always handled me with grace and care. I still don't know why you did that but I will forever be grateful and hold you in such a high regard. I will never hate you, I will always have love for you in my heart. Not romantic love, just love. I know you had your own struggles to and I'm sorry. But I know that you were meant to come in my life when you did and I will forever be grateful to that. I will forever be thankful to you. Thank you for being there for me during the worst times in my life and thank you for not getting mad at me. Thank you for helping me pick up the pieces of my trauma and most of all thank you for slapping me awake and inspiring me to change my life for the better. Thank you for something else too, I don't know if you realize this but you helped make me feel pretty again. So thank you!