If I Was Computer

It's 3:39 AM

and for some reason

my mind just won't

turn off.

Sometimes I wish

I could be a little bit

like a computer

so that I could shut

my brain down

and set a time to

wake up.

I would feel

more organized

and less stressed.

I would have everything

I need, right in front of me

I wouldn't have

to worry about

so many of the things

that burden human minds

wouldn't life

be much easier

if we had on/off switches

just like a computer?

Every time I had

a meltdown,

I could say

my system "crashed"

and reboot myself.

When I reboot,

it gets rid of the sad

thoughts and the

things that make me

mentally unwell.

I could stabilize

my emotions

and prioritize

my success

and calculate

and calculate

and calculate.

I could know without

having to Google

I wouldn't need money

or to be super frugal

I could be more in control

of my life.

A lot of people wish for

the things humans

can never have:

more time,

forever young,

never having to die,

never having to try.

But what I wish for

is just a regular sleep

schedule.