My grannies death

i remember

a queasy feeling

in my gut

That my granny was no longer healing

i remember

Being scared for her life

as she was my one true friend

and her death would cause me a lot of strife

i remember

thinking to myself that day

that i would see her the next

how little did i know that i just may

i remember

the next morning rolling round

that queasy feeling returned

i knew something wasn’t sound

i remember

thinking that something had occured

and i was right too

as my mother gathered us round the topic to which she never referred

i remember

asking outright

is granny dead

as she nodded i noticed her eyes no longer had any light

i remember

she went first

to see my granny at her home

when it was my turn into tears i burst

i remember

thinking I should have listened to my gut

for rarely had it been wrong before

however there was no time or place for a but

i remember

thinking it was too late

for regrets or feelings

just time to honor my granny on her funeral date

I remember

on that very day

we stood opposite my mum grandad and uncles

my dad had no say

i remember

we stood and refused to move

for we wanted to be the last ones they hugged

and i knew granny would approve

i remember

as the service went on

silent tears i cried

for it marked a new dawn

i remember

thinking how bleak the future looked

without my granny in it

and all the plans we had booked

i remember

at the grave

i ran ahead of my family so i could say one last goodbye

but I found myself caught in an embrace

i remember

them lowering her down

into that deep cold hole

with the edges all brown

i remember

the afterservice at the hotel in the nearest town

the same town her funeral service was held in

i wasnt very social for i was feeling very down

i remember

eventually we went home

i went to my room

and i cried a lot like i was locked in a privacy dome

i remember

my whole teen hood i never recovered

from my grannies death

but this no one discovered

All of this i remember