depression

It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.

Fear of Being Alone
Recently I discovered my fear of being alone. I have been afraid to be alone in terms of romantic relationships. I think I've always known this to some degree but it became abundantly clear to me when I found myself staying in a bad relationship. Anyway that is another story, the recent discovery though is how scared I am of being alone with my thoughts and I have subconsciously always found ways to avoid long periods of just thinking and this is what I believe to have been the gateway to my debilitating depression.
By Yedzayi Nenjerama8 years ago in Psyche
Postpartum Depression
POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION IS MORE REAL THAN THE AIR I BREATHE. Depression is lonely, but postpartum depression is isolation and guilt. It’s so taboo that the thought of a discussion scares you into silence. If I talk about it will they take my baby away? If I admit what I’m actually feeling will they think I’m a bad mom and not fit to be a parent? Should I speak up or should I stay quiet? Postpartum isn’t only after the baby is born, it can start during pregnancy. Hormones are your enemy during and after pregnancy. It feels like they want to kill me. I must fake a smile and go on.
By Alicia Leon8 years ago in Psyche
Depression Doesn't Have to be Postpartum!
Yes, I just recently had a baby. Yes, I’m depressed as fuck. No, I DO NOT have postpartum depression. Postpartum Depression is depression suffered by a mother following childbirth, typically arising from the combination of hormonal changes, psychological adjustment to motherhood, and fatigue. I’m already a mother, so there’s not much of a psychological adjustment needed there, and sure I’m tired and fatigued, but I was more tired and fatigued before the baby was born due to a pregnancy induced liver disease (Intrahepatic Cholestasis of Pregnancy, or ICP for short) that made me constantly itch all over my body. I actually sleep better now that the baby is born. Oh yes, the hormones are plenty, but they aren’t all bad. Oxytocin isn’t bad. The hormones are not making me depressed either, although I blame those for the waterworks that occur during sappy commercials and the sentimental sadness I experience when I think about my babies growing up on me.
By Jessa Mae8 years ago in Psyche
How We All Live in a Depressed World
Those days you wake up and would like to scream but realise you have no voice so an inner voice from inside yourself screams itself allowing yourself to feel better. This situation does not allow yourself to leave but you really have to be strong enough to allow it to leave. It is like you do not want it to leave but then you do. It all starts off with a feeling of slight loneliness which you try to erase. However, after a few days you realise there is nothing to erase as it was not just a thought but a true fact. This intense feeling makes you believe that there is no one and that you are truly alone. Alone from the inside of your heart to the outside of your soul. It is hard to believe but this feeling comes to a lot of people once in a lifetime and it is about time to share this feeling with the entire world. People experiencing depression will relate to this because it will allow yourself to awaken as it is not the best place to be in at any point of your life. You start to question everything in your entire life, the good that you have done and the bad that you have committed. When deep down you know that good is good and bad is bad but you still end up questioning the good to make yourself feel better. Sadly, it does not work and you start to realise that nothing in this entire life makes you feel happy. This feeling can occur to anyone at any age and its very depressing when you are young and have to go through all this. I guess it is a sad fact that allows you to understand the concept of reality.
By Z K8 years ago in Psyche
Mercury Retrograde: The Good, The Bad and The Truth!
Have you ever wondered if the planets could actually have an affect on your life? It's not as far-fetched as one might think it is. Mercury is more than just a mysterious planet in the far away galaxy. Even though Mercury is an average distance of 48 million miles (77 kilometers) from Earth, it's presence is felt by all of the people that are living on planet Earth.
By Silena Le Beau8 years ago in Psyche
My Struggle with Postpartum Depression
Acknowledging what you don't want to be there is something none of us want to do. Mental illnesses being one of the main things we don't want to believe was there.
By Brookelynn Redden8 years ago in Psyche
Want What You Don't Want
I am the definition of “a Jack of all trades, and a master of none.” While all the people around me seemingly fall into their perfect jobs, relationships, financial situations, or whatever it may be; I’m constantly running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off. Always doing damage control on the fires I start, in all areas of my life. Apparently, I’m careless about where I throw my used cigarette butts.
By Annie Storwick8 years ago in Psyche
Explaining My Depression
As you stare at yourself in the mirror, you could pick out every single flaw, because that’s the only thing others focus on.
By savannah noelle8 years ago in Psyche
Find Your Battle Buddy
Before I begin let me start off by saying depression sucks! Anxiety sucks! "Invisible illnesses" SUCK!Ok I think you get my point now. So what the hell am I doing here? Simple. I want to help others who battle the ups and downs of daily life. Their struggles are not going to single them out. Everyone struggles. Even if you haven't officially been diagnosed with something. Struggle is everywhere; some are just better at hiding it than others.The past month and a half or so I was switched medications (again) for my anxiety, depression, and fibromyalgia. At first let me tell you, THEY SUCKED! I felt like a zombie. Almost drooling on myself and not talking to anyone. Zoning out. Just BLAH. The overall feeling of being numb from head to toe. But after about 3 weeks of taking my medications like I should, I began to feel so much better. I tell you this because I have been that person who hated meds and would not take them religiously. Thought they didn't work. Well the truth is that I didn't let them work. This time I have one of those medicine container things with the days and times. I refill it every Saturday night for the whole week. Sorry, off on a tangent. But I began to feel BETTER. Now, as someone who has struggled on and off with depression for 17 years, feeling "better" is not 100% - even 10% better is better than 2% and that's where I am at now. I am about 10% better than I was a month and a half ago.A month and a half ago I hated life. I wore a smile for my children and coworkers and boyfriend just to make sure they didn't feel the same way as me. And of course to mask my true feelings. I don't cry often but damn when I do, it pours out. There are times I would be driving home from grocery shopping and out of nowhere I'm bawling my eyes out. Just crying hysterically. Wondering what the hell I'm doing here...Hell I even took a picture and posted it on my Facebook.
By Ashley Bone8 years ago in Psyche
Living With Depression
I have depression. And no, I do not mean the "casual sadness" that tends to hit some of us during the holidays, or even that of which hits us whenever something saddening happens in our lives. I have depression, full blown, clinical depression. But what exactly then is depression, if not just being sad a bunch, you ask? Why can I not just go outside more, take some vitamins, exercise and socialize more, that would help, would it not? The best way I can explain it is that it is not that easy. Depression is the constant and severe feeling that you are not good enough and that you never will be good enough. In fact, it convinces you that you never really were good enough in the first place. Depression is a loss of hope, a loss of courage, a loss of a will to live. It is a festering, nagging feeling that cannot be shaken so easily. Sure, I could go outside more, take my vitamins, "get help." But those are all just temporary, short-term fixes to a prominent, long-term problem. Even after trying all of those things, I would still have those terrible thoughts in the back of my mind, I would still have depression.
By Arielle Adornetto8 years ago in Psyche
Silent Killer
Searching the internet to find out what is the easiest, most efficient way, to commit suicide, isn’t what I thought I’d be doing at the age of 19. When you're 6 years old, and your teacher asks what you want to be when you grow up, my mind didn’t race to having clinical depression and Googling how many of my antidepressants would it take to end my life. And yet there I was. At my lowest. Sobbing uncontrollably for the millionth time in my kitchen floor, hoping that I could cry out all the pain. For it all to stop.
By Starry Eyed8 years ago in Psyche
View of Depression
Depression. A word that scares people. A word that is frowned upon. A feeling that not usually understood, especially by those who are not victims of this diagnosis.
By Jacob Bennett8 years ago in Psyche