Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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The Attic
I had sort of a panic attack/breakdown; really wanting to leave the house I am currently in. I talked to Cass, a former patient of Cedar Hills I was locked up with, he convinced me that I should stay here until I save up the money to leave properly because it would be harder to figure myself out in foster care or a shelter.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 聖域
I told off my mom while her friend was at the house. I just locked the door after she tried to get on me. I refuse to talk to her more than necessary. My nieces also came over. I think the youngest one is pregnant so I guess they were wanting to talk about that. I think she was trying to record me as I was leaving the room, but maybe not? I just got done crying so, I went to the bathroom, because I don't have time for that right now.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
What the hail?
Ugh, I woke up fine but I feel like I have nothing to go off of. My schedule is all topsy turvy and I am not sure how to proceed on a lot of things. My mom randomly told me I needed to babysit the dogs today and I am almost thinking of using that as an excuse to miss the appointment I have today for the vocational help.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Ai Bullshit
Last night I was so pissed because I was commenting on a Youtube tarot card reader's reading and saying it was bullshit he was using Ai for everything and talking about it possibly having consciousness and going forward with it in a "spiritual sense".
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Inspiration cometh
It is still in the process of manifesting but, I am considering going back to some projects or to develop my resume and such that I complained about before to Kim. I mean, I can't tell someone I can do better than them and not have anything to show for it, otherwise I am trash. I unfortunately made my life a bit harder for that, but I do know that is completely within my ability to do so, its just about collecting enough energy to do that.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Next steps
Today is Venus trine Jupiter: This transit could lead to a well-deserved income boost or a surge in your self-worth, given that sweet Venus, your ruler, is now in your daily routine and wellness sector as it connects with fortunate Jupiter in your money zone.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Shit Morning
I wake up to a good morning from Jahon which was nice, but I feel like... I am feeling we don't work together well to be honest, or rather. We aren't working at all so I can't say it is bad or good because it is just non existent. I mean, he was trying to calm me down through text last night I guess but, all these events: the shitty vocational coach, my shitty boyfriend, my shitty family... I am so tempted to just go back to freelancing or try harder with freelancing despite the pay being so poor. It would wreck a lot of the plans I have now, but I am honest, the cold months are coming in and, with me not having a car, there is going to be less I am able to do physically going forward without money.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Game on
I had a great conversation with my boyfriend last night. It was sort of born out of us both having sort of shitty days. He had to replace a tool at his work and the replacement ended up being the wrong fit so he just curled up into a ball and died. I was walking and a bug flew into my mouth and I puked into someone's lawn because I overthought eating a fucking bug and then when I got home I had the worst rash on my butt from walking too much. Just smothered myself in the zinc oxide stuff.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
