Stream of Consciousness
LIFE IS A MESS
I was searching for stability but I never found one. I tried to make things right by doing right things at the right time but it always felt like something is off and here, you go now you have surrounded yourself with another problem. The problem doesn't even wait for the previous problem to be solved. It's a mess. No matter how hard I try but I can't make things right.
By Shristi Pandit3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 神経痛
I feel I am going a little crazy since. I had that whole idea that I needed sex at least 3 times a week. I thought it might help my mental health but, I think I sort of down played the mental play that is required to even maneuver a FwB situation. I might have already overbooked myself. I have the tattoo artist hitting me up, and the sex god isn't answering me so I don't even know if he'll ever visit me again, then I made some random plans with this hot Kazahk guy to come down here from Canada.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Secret Letter
What Jake Became I gave his moment to the ether in my mind. Between 2007 and 2009, while others buried Jake and marked the date he died, I let him dissolve into something larger. I didn't trap him in grief or fix him to a gravestone. Instead, I released him into the atmosphere of my consciousness - not as an ending, but as a beginning. In doing that, something unexpected happened: we became one. Not in a way that erased him or made him less real, but in a way that let him breathe through me, move through me, become woven into how I understood the world.
By Parsley Rose 3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 立場. Top Story - November 2025.
I.. started talking about that guy in the tarot card discord. I am.. well I don't feel ashamed but I need to actually figure out if this is any good to continue to do, and if I am thinking about it, deep down I know it isn't.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 台数
I sort of crashed out last night and woke up at 5 am today. I still have my clothes on and everything. Luckily this is what I wanted to wear today since I still have that hickey, I am sure. I don't know why but I find it endearing. He was so gentle and tender with me with everything else, this sort of little act of "violence" sort of showed a deeper intention.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 不倫
I think that the Ezra Miller guy... might not be a good choice. He has an ex wife he works with and a son with her. I feel like he actually is married. I... don't want to enter into something under those circumstances. I would never openly go after a taken man. Never. If I ever knew I was in an extra-marital affair, I'd end it immediately.
By Kayla McIntosh3 months ago in Confessions
My Mirror Spoke!
I didn’t realise how lost I was until the day my own reflection stopped recognising me. It didn’t judge me, it didn’t comfort me—it just stared back with a quiet disappointment that felt like a truth I could no longer outrun. That was the moment I knew: the person I had been pretending to be was finally collapsing under the weight of who I really was.
By Lori A. A.3 months ago in Confessions
